There is nothing you can say...

sooo

2008-05-28T03:02:43Z

For once, I'm actually happy with my life right now. Even though my friends are falling apart, high school is almost over, and Catie is leaving soon, I feel like I know who I am for once in my life. It took me this long to figure out who I really care about and want to spend my time with and I feel closer to my family more than ever. I think it takes a lot of drama and fights to get someone to realize who will always be there for them in the long run. The sad part is, I only have a few more months until I leave it all behind. I'm really trying to not think about the fact that I'm going to be at least 4.5 hours away from the three people who mean the most in the world to me right now with no car and no one else who I know around me in a completely different environment. But the good thing is, after all the shit that has happened this year, they've proved to me that I know for sure that they'll be there for me when I need help, and I'll be most willing to do my best to help them. I basically wrote this to remind me of how good God has been to me, and I hope that whoever reads this has the same people in their life as well.

so bored

2008-02-04T05:04:40Z

I'm so bored that I'm actually updating my livejournal.. I think it's only been about 6 months. I have so much homework I really just don't feel like doing it. High school is so overrated for me right now and I just want to be done with it, I don't care about my grades. I got into the college I wanted with a good scholarship, so screw school. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends, and I've met some of the most amazing people. But, I'm just sick of all the drama and backstabbing, especially at work. I feel like I can only trust a few people, and I feel like I'm losing touch with those people because I'm so busy all the time. I feel awful, but I need to work, and work gives me the shittiest hours. And when I finally get a day off, someone asks me to work for them and I can't turn them down because I need the money. So when I'm not working, I'm at musical practice. Which is also fun, but not the same without Megan and Lauren. It's crazy without them. I love having Ju and Renee, but they, especially lauren, have been with me the past 3 years and I was really looking forward to our last one together. I'm proud of them for not being pressured into doing it from Mrs. Sill, but I just can't stand it. So I'm basically surrounding myself with fake, backtalking, people and it's driving me nuts. I just want summer to come. FJKLASDJKASDFJKLASDJKASD.

here it is

2007-07-27T01:56:48Z

got my schedule today. i dont wanna go back. but here it is in all its glory.

1st semester
1) themes- michalik
2) sociology- salvia
3) women in the bible- larkin (YES!)
4) free
5) analysis w/ trig- noll
6) spanish 4- sinutko
7) physics- scalzi

2nd semester
1) free
2) prayer- lusch
3) lit of the american south- gruber (shit)
4) lifetime fitness- j
5) same
6) same
7) same

idk if it will stay the same... i want to drop a semester of math and take broadcasting so it might switch a few things. im pretty happy with it tho :) even tho no one ever goes on lj anymore let me know if we have classes.

gibsternator @ 2007-06-15T12:17:00

2007-06-15T16:18:09Z

its summer! =D

gibsternator @ 2007-03-03T20:21:00

2007-03-04T04:23:24Z

i am the stupidest person alive.

gibsternator @ 2007-02-26T17:43:00

2007-02-27T01:55:39Z

I still have so much to do tonight. I really hope our spanish presentation goes well tomorrow.

I finally got my stupid outfit for the beginning of the show, its not great but it was only $5.

I'm kinda sad that 42nd street is ending in like a month, but kinda glad cause I want to start working more so badly. And when I went in today to pick up my paycheck (a pitiful $65) sammie was working and I haven't worked with her since like last year because she only works weekdays now and when I see her I barely get to talk to her. She used to be my best friend there and I really miss her! so yeah. plus I'm broke.

and I'm still debating on if I'm going to soph semi. Most likely a no.

yesssssssssss

2007-02-20T01:21:36Z

i FINALLY have a car!!!!

yay. :)

and bake sale is tomorrrrrow.
bring money bitches.

omgah.

2007-02-16T16:07:54Z

So I have to leave at like noonish to drive 8 hours to go on a train for andy's birthday.... I'm really excited... and I could've actually had fun and went to battle of the bands lol. ah well.

Last night was one of the best nights I've had in a while. After practice I went to stephanie h's house and met up w/ jonesst. Then we went to blockbuster to rent the hours, but it was out so we found this movie that was like march of the penguins but instead had voices dubbed in it and it was about bob saget and his friend looking for some hot booty lmao. It was the weirdest but funniest movie ever. After we got it we went back to stephanie's house and got Jane Wade and we went to the bulk foods store and got like 20 lbs of candy haha. Then we went to Arby's and met this sweet dude working there, every 10 minutes he'd walk by and go YALL NEED ANYTHING?! We were gonna ask him how to walk it out but it didn't work out lol. It took a long time to find the normal sized straws, Jane rung the great service bell. Oh and it smelled like shit. lmao. Then we watched the movie and Jane had to leave and we kinda played clue, got a little side tracked but it was intense. AND DRANK APPLE JUICE. OMGAH.

Time to pack... please everyone call or text me when I'm gone cause it's gonna be hell.

no studying for me.

2007-02-12T01:49:16Z

I don't wanna study for chem... bah!

I need someone to distract me right now...

a certain someone.

hah I'm really retarded.

open house was today. it was the same as every year is. squatting in painful positions for a good 10 minutes and then running the act. quite enjoyable though. a couple questions arose. 1) "What is this musical really about?" well, gabe informed me that it was about 42nd street, and the history of it. apparently he is a construction barrel, tony is a bench, and patty b. said she was a multi tasking role, ie moldy sandwich, pop can, etc. I decided to be a fire hydrant. the other question was "Why is the musical called 42nd street, anyway?" apparently the musical takes place on 42nd street. but, megs thought it was more clever to name it "Allentown". i think it suits it better. then lauren and katie got invited to the drunk party onstage and i was very upset that i wasn't. boo. and we also discovered that the random staircase backstage DOES connect to something! and it is not the staircase of death as lauren assumed. though it would make the musical a lot more interesting.

if it weren't for theatre people i don't know how i'd live.

eeeee

2007-01-26T21:25:00Z

t.g.i.f. this week was so frickin long.

tonight I'm cleaning my room. yes, you read that correctly. I'm locking myself in and not leaving til that black hole is clean. I'm working tomorrow and then going out with people, so I'm excited. Then most likely working Sunday/homework...

Hahaha I just checked my grades and I ended up getting a B in math. how that happened I have no clue... I'm so happy that Jenna made that petition because dambrun is seriously the worst teacher I've EVER had. If you don't know about it and want to sign it, see Jenna. It's a petition that says basically dambruns nice but a horrible teacher. Apparently mrs witte thinks that not a lot of the students think that she's a bad teacher and quite frankly, I've never heard any good things about her.

Musical practice has gotten a lot better. Abby got dropped which makes me extemely sad cause she's hilarious and I usually hang out with her all the time at practice, and we have the same sense of humor which makes practices amazing. but she had conflicts with MUN so yeah. that sucks. But it's a good show thus far.

oh and grey's last night... :) some good stuff. except the whole slicing legs open, that wasn't too pretty. and I almost cried at the amish girl... and that's pretty weird since I never cry at tv shows/movies.

mk room time.

gibsternator @ 2007-01-21T22:21:00

2007-01-22T03:37:18Z

Since I deleted my myspace and my facebook... I'll probably be updating this more. I felt like I was on the computer way too much so sorry to those who are mad and I know you will all miss me on myspace but I needed to do it.

my new puppy chloe has been pretty cool for the most part, I don't think she likes me that much but she's still cute.

omg today me and my family went to go see that cirque dreams play... weirdest thing ever. the people were talented and some of the stuff they did was really cool... but just the whole jist of it, like the music and the costumes was just plain odd. I agree with my sister that we would've enjoyed it a lot better if we were high...

work today was interesting. stalker stopped by. I was very sly in avoiding him though, I got really lucky. :) it worked out since I wasn't the only cashier today, I just acted like i was doing something else so he went in marie's line when I was "busy". but other than a few people, I love kmart. I sound like the biggest loser, but the people there (no matter how weird/perverted/retarded) are the coolest people to work with. they're all really friendly and hilarious.

I'm tired.
i really want a snow day...

sucks

2006-12-24T05:33:55Z

so thursday and friday were the best and worst days.

thursday was last day of school. a ball. amazing. a ball was by far the best dance so far at mercy. i had so much fun and i couldnt have asked for a better date then joe. and for better friends to have and be with that night.

friday we put bingo to sleep which was probably the hardest thing ive ever had to do. my mom wanted all of us in the room and i could barely take it. it was like losing a little sister. but shes in a better place now, she was 14 and lived a long time for a dog her size. it was kind of a bonding experience. i dont think id ever seen either of my brothers cry in the past 10 years. we went out to lunch after and ryan told us to go around and say a memory weve had with bingo and i started balling right at the table.. pretty embarassing but we ended up laughing about the good times we had with her.

3 days :)

procrastination

2006-12-13T05:27:31Z

so its 12:30.. i havent finished my gruber essay due tomorrow, and i havent started reading apush.

and im actually not freaking out about it....

i guess i really am a slacker.

anyways, yesterday was the first day of 42nd street practice, it was okay i guess, already got yelled at by mrs sill. fantastic. + i already felt sick because of the spanish food at the SHH christmas party... oh well. I miss minnelle and joe like crazy. I don't know how i'm going to survive being in the musical without them. I feel like i'm not close with anyone in the show except andy and a few other people who already have a ton of friends in it. but an old marquis camper is in it which should be fun. i just need to start this making friends phase over again which is really hard for me sometimes.

I really need break to come...

a ball is going to be amazing.
(finally going dress shopping on friday.)

ughhh but then i have a 9 hr shift at kmart on sat.
kill me now.

i cant wait for floridaaa

i guess i should finish my paper and read.

hahah

2006-11-20T04:37:42Z

theres a recall on our jeep.

my family w/ one car = hell.

the good times just keep comin.

gibsternator @ 2006-11-17T19:15:00

2006-11-18T00:15:33Z

im home on a friday night. fabulous.

i was going to babysit, but she cancelled last minute. :(

i am so bored i already read the chapter for apush. bahhh.

and im kinda pissed at kmart. they usually never give me hours, and now theyre scheduling me on tuesday, THANKSGIVING (yes, kmart is open on thanksgiving, i dont know why either), friday and saturday and probably sunday. and these are all 6 or 6 and 1/2 hr shifts, and ive never gotten more then a 5 hour shift. i think they hate me. they didnt even discuss thanksgiving with me. and this whole chris thing is stressing me out and i hate how everyone is either making fun of me or making me feel bad about it. im really not a bad person.

and now my dad is starting to talk to me and andy again. we went out to eat last night and were going to a movie tomorrow night. i wonder how long his phase of wanting to spend time with us is gonna last. probably until we start asking him for money. its so awkward around him. i hate hate hate it.

ugh i just wish someone would understand where im coming from on everything, but im sorry to all of u who i annoy when i have my mood swings, some things just build up.

gibsternator @ 2006-10-30T21:01:00

2006-10-31T02:03:45Z

this is a big deal that im updating this so it should be important right?

well it is.

come to the haunted house tomorrow!! even if u have to skip its worth it. and uhhh theres 1 out of 5 chances that ill be your guide!! hahaha but it really is good this year.

and i also hate spanish orals.

the end.

hmm

2006-09-09T04:05:23Z

i guess i should talk about my classes.

race relations- grubers actually keeping me awake! score one.

theater production- boring boring boring. but i cant wait to use a saw :)

spanish- ok. im sorry if you love her or w/e, but senora shea doesn't teach very well. she's super nice but polo was a way better teacher. but me and lauren have fun.

chem- so i'm pretty much the biggest loner in this class. all of the juniors (the very few thats in the class) are lame. the ima chemist thing was kinda weird. and im the only junior in my group. fabulous.

apush- im kinda excited for this class... but scared too. idk i think ill do okay and i love schusterbauer!

world religions- shoot me now. dumbest class ever. larkin is a nut.

alg 2- k so dambrun cant teach. she literally looked at someones homework because she couldnt do the problem. she bugs the crap out of me. i would switch out if i didnt have friends in that class.. hopefully ill survive. :)

mercy dance was reeeeally fun. tons of ppl were there so i was very happy. i had to sell waters towards the end but we ended up running out so we just closed the stand thing so i got to leave early :) im really tired now though and i have to work from 1-6 tomorrow and then im going over to my cousins with my brothe for game night! and we always have fun so im excited.

hi.

2006-08-29T17:25:01Z

yesss liam's finally asleep.

saturday was my cousin morgan's bday so we went to their house for cake and ice cream. it was fun, my cousin tiffany was being a huge annoyance but when she left it was better. me jenna and andy played a bunch of games. i love my family so much, after some of the things theyve been through we all still get together for bdays and everything, theyre amazing.

on sunday i had to work from 10-3. it was really busy but it was better than just standing there. ANOTHER customer crapped his pants. seriously some old people are disgusting. then later that night jenna came over and had a cheetah partay hahaha and watched the cheetah girls 2. then we watched bring it on 3 which was actually really funny... KRUMPING. haha

monday i drove up to kmart with jenna to get my paycheck. we got a couple pretzels and i talked to shanyn for a while. my paycheck made me a very happy camper ($312). then i drove jenna home, went to kroger to deposit and cash part of my check then i bought catie a balloon and drove over to her house since it was her bdaaaayyy. then she drove us up to target... her driving skills are just... amazing hahaha i enjoy parking in noman's land. then we went back to her house and waited for stephani and we went to chili's and colored peppers and hung out w/ peppercorn haha i love those girls. then we went to borders, i got the cartel cd, its pretty good. stephani then had to save someone by running out in the rain like an idiot and moved the cart in the middle of the road and almost getting hit by a car in the process lol. then we went back to her house and left later on.

and now im babysitting liam and bored out of my mind... ive been on myspace pretty much the entire day which is pretty sad.

tomorrow im going up to mercy to see if i can get my schedule changed.. not expecting anything though. then going to laurens house for lunch and then 12 oaks. and school starts in a week. fabulous.

someone

2006-08-22T03:30:00Z

please buy my christian traditions book! im willing to sell it cheap.

oh and its for mr wrights class.

that is all.

sigh

2006-08-19T21:08:15Z

work today was crazy. im so tired. we had the fashion show thing today and so many effing people were there. we had 4 cashiers (it's usually 1 or 2) and it still took us forever to get rid of everyone.

last couple of days i hung out with devan. it was fun hanging out with her again :) we went to see the broadway camp showcase last night. i don't even wanna talk how bad it was. a couple people were good... but it was just very very sad. and just being at that theatre makes me feel weird. i probably wont be going back there in a while.

i hung out with joe too, for the last time in a while. we just walked around fountain walk and talked about life, haha. im gonna miss him tons.

so now i have to babysit in 15 minutes. the kids are fun but im soo tired. blleh.

eh

2006-08-14T15:46:09Z

i hate updating but i'm really bored.

today will be the 5th day in a row that i've worked which is pretty sad but i'm getting my paycheck today which should make up for it. i like working there but i basically have no life now, because im working all the time. i really wanted to go camping with mary and liam this weekend, but im working. bleh. and now i'm gonna be saving my money because my mom said that she wont have enough money to buy me a car, which is wonderful. i wish she wouldve just told me a long time ago that she doesnt have it so i couldve started saving sooner.

yesterday me, mary and liam went to this thing at pontiac airport where they have a bunch of planes set out and u can look at them and theres an air show and all this other stuff which is kind of lame but one form of entertainment we get out here. we waited in line for about a half hour to listen to this guy talk about one of the planes, and when we were finally next liam got crabby so we just left. after that he was a pain, so we just left lol. i went a few years ago and it wasnt that bad. oh well.

working at 5... :)?

helllooooo.

2006-07-30T21:56:22Z

so i actually had a good day at work today! yay. i just felt like i fit in cuz i knew everyone working and i didnt have any trouble with the register and i got my discount card finally haha. so yeah if any of u want a 10% discount at the big k come visit me! haha. im kidding. dont drive out here. its not worth it.

so anyway yesterday i went to stratford with andy, mary, my mom and my mom's friend pat. we saw south pacific and oliver. south pacific was pretty good, its kind of a weird show but it was good. me and andy sat together and everyone else sat together seperate from us because my mom had to order the tickets last minute and there wasnt 5 seats together. there was this lady who was a few rows ahead of us whose eyebrows kept bouncing up and down when she was talking to her friend, and me and andy couldnt stop laughing. i brought it up during the second half and so we silently "chuckled" for like 2 seconds, and this lady next to andy gets all pissed off and tells him to control himself lmao. the one thing i dont like about stratford is that its mostly people who are about 60+ who come see the shows. oh well. then we went out to eat at bently's then we did a little bit of shopping, there was this really cute store with really cute dresses but they were expensive. i got a purse tho :). then we saw oliver. SUCH a good show. i was amazed at how well those kids could sing, especially oliver and the dodger. it was really good. but i sat behind this really annoying girl with this huge flower in her hair. i really just wanted to rip it out. and she kept laughing at everything and u could tell she didnt get any of it. i wanted to slap her. but whatever. then we drove home and i got no sleep which sucked and i hated getting up this morning. but it was an okay day.

OH! another thing. my mom bought my family and i tickets to see avenue q on broadway!!! IM SO EXCITED. we have like 4th row too!! so yes, just thought id share.

i think im going school clothes shopping tomorrow. :D

second best

2006-07-24T02:40:19Z

so myspace is being gay.

yesterday was really fun. well first i had to work from 9-2 which was actually not bad cuz it was slow and im beginning to make friends (yay). but then i was really tired and went home and called jenna to hang out cuz shes leaving me next week. we went to mr c's and colin was finally working!!!! haha so me and jenna are pretty much obsessed with him... and his new hair (hehe). so we were pretty happy about that. then we went back to my house and went on the trampoline with andy and liam, and liam kept saying how U doin jen-na?! and we were dying laughing... i guess it was a u had to have been there thing. then we watched project runway and if any of you watch it, then let me tell you that vincent has a creepishly strong resemblance to my dad. just the way he talks and his expression and blunt rudeness just screams my dad. its weird. and then we watched read it and weep on disney haha its actually a pretty decent movie, and they actually kiss! good show. :D then i drove her home and we almost hit an ooooopossom lmao we have too much fun.

then today i had to get up at 10 which sucks cause i should be sleeping in til 1. but i got to miss my little cousin's basptism... which sounds mean but those things are the most boring thing to sit through in the world. so i worked til 3:30 and got gas after and my mom and my brother stalked me at the gas station which was weird. we went to the hospital to visit my grandma, she has a kidney infection or something. i feel so bad for her it feels like shes always in the hospital. she looked awful but she acted normal. then on the way home my mom wanted to look at a car for sale on m-59 and i absolutely love it. but i love it even more because of the fact that if my mom buys it, the escort is mine all to myself. :) so yeah this week im working a lot which is great... and hopefully hanging out with JUSCAR on wed!!

schedule

2006-07-20T03:37:09Z

1st semester

1st- race realtions with mr gruber
2nd- theater production with mr sill
3rd- spanish 3 with senora shea
4th- chemistry with ms kitzmann
5th- AP american history with mr schusterbauer
6th- world religions with mrs larkin
7th- alg 2 with ms dambrun

2nd semster

1st- myth tale and legend with ms mordenski
2nd- spanish 3 with ms labelle
3rd- relationships with mrs ewald
4th- same
5th- same
6th- off
7th- same

you know what to do!

oh and ps im really excited about cedar point tomorrow w/ my fave ppl!!!! :D

even though no one comments anymore...

2006-07-11T21:59:54Z

yesterday i finally saw pirates of the caribbean 2. the first was way better, but it was actually pretty good for a sequel. i have tons of questions about it, but can't be answered until the 3rd one comes out so it better come out fast cuz im frustrated cuz i dont know anything. w/e.

today was my first day at work even tho i didnt do anything besides watch videos for 5 hours and i had to do paperwork and all this other crap. yeah, definitely not fun. i'm just happy to have a job though. my vest is red, not lime green like i thought. i guess they switched back. :( its cute though hehe. i start the actual work on thursday. im kinda nervous cuz i dont know what im doing, im just showing up and finding someone to teach me how to work the register. psh.

oh, and i hate this kind of weather.