| sooo |
[May. 27th, 2008|10:55 pm] |
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| |  grateful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | those you've known- spring awakening | ] |
For once, I'm actually happy with my life right now. Even though my friends are falling apart, high school is almost over, and Catie is leaving soon, I feel like I know who I am for once in my life. It took me this long to figure out who I really care about and want to spend my time with and I feel closer to my family more than ever. I think it takes a lot of drama and fights to get someone to realize who will always be there for them in the long run. The sad part is, I only have a few more months until I leave it all behind. I'm really trying to not think about the fact that I'm going to be at least 4.5 hours away from the three people who mean the most in the world to me right now with no car and no one else who I know around me in a completely different environment. But the good thing is, after all the shit that has happened this year, they've proved to me that I know for sure that they'll be there for me when I need help, and I'll be most willing to do my best to help them. I basically wrote this to remind me of how good God has been to me, and I hope that whoever reads this has the same people in their life as well. |
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| so bored |
[Feb. 3rd, 2008|11:57 pm] |
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| | all we are- onerepublic | ] |
I'm so bored that I'm actually updating my livejournal.. I think it's only been about 6 months. I have so much homework I really just don't feel like doing it. High school is so overrated for me right now and I just want to be done with it, I don't care about my grades. I got into the college I wanted with a good scholarship, so screw school. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends, and I've met some of the most amazing people. But, I'm just sick of all the drama and backstabbing, especially at work. I feel like I can only trust a few people, and I feel like I'm losing touch with those people because I'm so busy all the time. I feel awful, but I need to work, and work gives me the shittiest hours. And when I finally get a day off, someone asks me to work for them and I can't turn them down because I need the money. So when I'm not working, I'm at musical practice. Which is also fun, but not the same without Megan and Lauren. It's crazy without them. I love having Ju and Renee, but they, especially lauren, have been with me the past 3 years and I was really looking forward to our last one together. I'm proud of them for not being pressured into doing it from Mrs. Sill, but I just can't stand it. So I'm basically surrounding myself with fake, backtalking, people and it's driving me nuts. I just want summer to come. FJKLASDJKASDFJKLASDJKASD. |
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| here it is |
[Jul. 26th, 2007|09:51 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | dont do sadness- S.A. | ] |
got my schedule today. i dont wanna go back. but here it is in all its glory.
1st semester
1) themes- michalik
2) sociology- salvia
3) women in the bible- larkin (YES!)
4) free
5) analysis w/ trig- noll
6) spanish 4- sinutko
7) physics- scalzi
2nd semester
1) free
2) prayer- lusch
3) lit of the american south- gruber (shit)
4) lifetime fitness- j
5) same
6) same
7) same
idk if it will stay the same... i want to drop a semester of math and take broadcasting so it might switch a few things. im pretty happy with it tho :) even tho no one ever goes on lj anymore let me know if we have classes. |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2007|08:21 pm] |
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| |  disappointed | ] |
i am the stupidest person alive. |
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[Feb. 26th, 2007|05:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | cupid's chokehold- gym class heroes | ] |
I still have so much to do tonight. I really hope our spanish presentation goes well tomorrow.
I finally got my stupid outfit for the beginning of the show, its not great but it was only $5.
I'm kinda sad that 42nd street is ending in like a month, but kinda glad cause I want to start working more so badly. And when I went in today to pick up my paycheck (a pitiful $65) sammie was working and I haven't worked with her since like last year because she only works weekdays now and when I see her I barely get to talk to her. She used to be my best friend there and I really miss her! so yeah. plus I'm broke.
and I'm still debating on if I'm going to soph semi. Most likely a no. |
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| yesssssssssss |
[Feb. 19th, 2007|05:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | glamorous- fergie | ] |
i FINALLY have a car!!!!
yay. :)
and bake sale is tomorrrrrow.
bring money bitches. |
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| omgah. |
[Feb. 16th, 2007|07:58 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | indescribable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | change your mind- all-american rejects | ] |
So I have to leave at like noonish to drive 8 hours to go on a train for andy's birthday.... I'm really excited... and I could've actually had fun and went to battle of the bands lol. ah well.
Last night was one of the best nights I've had in a while. After practice I went to stephanie h's house and met up w/ jonesst. Then we went to blockbuster to rent the hours, but it was out so we found this movie that was like march of the penguins but instead had voices dubbed in it and it was about bob saget and his friend looking for some hot booty lmao. It was the weirdest but funniest movie ever. After we got it we went back to stephanie's house and got Jane Wade and we went to the bulk foods store and got like 20 lbs of candy haha. Then we went to Arby's and met this sweet dude working there, every 10 minutes he'd walk by and go YALL NEED ANYTHING?! We were gonna ask him how to walk it out but it didn't work out lol. It took a long time to find the normal sized straws, Jane rung the great service bell. Oh and it smelled like shit. lmao. Then we watched the movie and Jane had to leave and we kinda played clue, got a little side tracked but it was intense. AND DRANK APPLE JUICE. OMGAH.
Time to pack... please everyone call or text me when I'm gone cause it's gonna be hell. |
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| no studying for me. |
[Feb. 11th, 2007|05:38 pm] |
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| | amused | ] |
I don't wanna study for chem... bah!
I need someone to distract me right now...
a certain someone.
hah I'm really retarded.
open house was today. it was the same as every year is. squatting in painful positions for a good 10 minutes and then running the act. quite enjoyable though. a couple questions arose. 1) "What is this musical really about?" well, gabe informed me that it was about 42nd street, and the history of it. apparently he is a construction barrel, tony is a bench, and patty b. said she was a multi tasking role, ie moldy sandwich, pop can, etc. I decided to be a fire hydrant. the other question was "Why is the musical called 42nd street, anyway?" apparently the musical takes place on 42nd street. but, megs thought it was more clever to name it "Allentown". i think it suits it better. then lauren and katie got invited to the drunk party onstage and i was very upset that i wasn't. boo. and we also discovered that the random staircase backstage DOES connect to something! and it is not the staircase of death as lauren assumed. though it would make the musical a lot more interesting.
if it weren't for theatre people i don't know how i'd live. |
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| eeeee |
[Jan. 26th, 2007|01:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | boston-augustana | ] |
t.g.i.f. this week was so frickin long.
tonight I'm cleaning my room. yes, you read that correctly. I'm locking myself in and not leaving til that black hole is clean. I'm working tomorrow and then going out with people, so I'm excited. Then most likely working Sunday/homework...
Hahaha I just checked my grades and I ended up getting a B in math. how that happened I have no clue... I'm so happy that Jenna made that petition because dambrun is seriously the worst teacher I've EVER had. If you don't know about it and want to sign it, see Jenna. It's a petition that says basically dambruns nice but a horrible teacher. Apparently mrs witte thinks that not a lot of the students think that she's a bad teacher and quite frankly, I've never heard any good things about her.
Musical practice has gotten a lot better. Abby got dropped which makes me extemely sad cause she's hilarious and I usually hang out with her all the time at practice, and we have the same sense of humor which makes practices amazing. but she had conflicts with MUN so yeah. that sucks. But it's a good show thus far.
oh and grey's last night... :) some good stuff. except the whole slicing legs open, that wasn't too pretty. and I almost cried at the amish girl... and that's pretty weird since I never cry at tv shows/movies.
mk room time. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2007|10:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | relieved | ] |
Since I deleted my myspace and my facebook... I'll probably be updating this more. I felt like I was on the computer way too much so sorry to those who are mad and I know you will all miss me on myspace but I needed to do it.
my new puppy chloe has been pretty cool for the most part, I don't think she likes me that much but she's still cute.
omg today me and my family went to go see that cirque dreams play... weirdest thing ever. the people were talented and some of the stuff they did was really cool... but just the whole jist of it, like the music and the costumes was just plain odd. I agree with my sister that we would've enjoyed it a lot better if we were high...
work today was interesting. stalker stopped by. I was very sly in avoiding him though, I got really lucky. :) it worked out since I wasn't the only cashier today, I just acted like i was doing something else so he went in marie's line when I was "busy". but other than a few people, I love kmart. I sound like the biggest loser, but the people there (no matter how weird/perverted/retarded) are the coolest people to work with. they're all really friendly and hilarious.
I'm tired.
i really want a snow day... |
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| sucks |
[Dec. 24th, 2006|12:33 am] |
so thursday and friday were the best and worst days.
thursday was last day of school. a ball. amazing. a ball was by far the best dance so far at mercy. i had so much fun and i couldnt have asked for a better date then joe. and for better friends to have and be with that night.
friday we put bingo to sleep which was probably the hardest thing ive ever had to do. my mom wanted all of us in the room and i could barely take it. it was like losing a little sister. but shes in a better place now, she was 14 and lived a long time for a dog her size. it was kind of a bonding experience. i dont think id ever seen either of my brothers cry in the past 10 years. we went out to lunch after and ryan told us to go around and say a memory weve had with bingo and i started balling right at the table.. pretty embarassing but we ended up laughing about the good times we had with her.
3 days :) |
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| procrastination |
[Dec. 13th, 2006|12:27 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | vamos a la playa | ] |
so its 12:30.. i havent finished my gruber essay due tomorrow, and i havent started reading apush.
and im actually not freaking out about it....
i guess i really am a slacker.
anyways, yesterday was the first day of 42nd street practice, it was okay i guess, already got yelled at by mrs sill. fantastic. + i already felt sick because of the spanish food at the SHH christmas party... oh well. I miss minnelle and joe like crazy. I don't know how i'm going to survive being in the musical without them. I feel like i'm not close with anyone in the show except andy and a few other people who already have a ton of friends in it. but an old marquis camper is in it which should be fun. i just need to start this making friends phase over again which is really hard for me sometimes.
I really need break to come...
a ball is going to be amazing.
(finally going dress shopping on friday.)
ughhh but then i have a 9 hr shift at kmart on sat.
kill me now.
i cant wait for floridaaa
i guess i should finish my paper and read. |
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| hahah |
[Nov. 19th, 2006|11:37 pm] |
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| |  nervous | ] |
theres a recall on our jeep.
my family w/ one car = hell.
the good times just keep comin. |
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[Nov. 17th, 2006|07:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
im home on a friday night. fabulous.
i was going to babysit, but she cancelled last minute. :(
i am so bored i already read the chapter for apush. bahhh.
and im kinda pissed at kmart. they usually never give me hours, and now theyre scheduling me on tuesday, THANKSGIVING (yes, kmart is open on thanksgiving, i dont know why either), friday and saturday and probably sunday. and these are all 6 or 6 and 1/2 hr shifts, and ive never gotten more then a 5 hour shift. i think they hate me. they didnt even discuss thanksgiving with me. and this whole chris thing is stressing me out and i hate how everyone is either making fun of me or making me feel bad about it. im really not a bad person.
and now my dad is starting to talk to me and andy again. we went out to eat last night and were going to a movie tomorrow night. i wonder how long his phase of wanting to spend time with us is gonna last. probably until we start asking him for money. its so awkward around him. i hate hate hate it.
ugh i just wish someone would understand where im coming from on everything, but im sorry to all of u who i annoy when i have my mood swings, some things just build up. |
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[Oct. 30th, 2006|09:01 pm] |
this is a big deal that im updating this so it should be important right?
well it is.
come to the haunted house tomorrow!! even if u have to skip its worth it. and uhhh theres 1 out of 5 chances that ill be your guide!! hahaha but it really is good this year.
and i also hate spanish orals.
the end. |
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| hmm |
[Sep. 8th, 2006|10:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | settle down- cartel | ] |
i guess i should talk about my classes.
race relations- grubers actually keeping me awake! score one.
theater production- boring boring boring. but i cant wait to use a saw :)
spanish- ok. im sorry if you love her or w/e, but senora shea doesn't teach very well. she's super nice but polo was a way better teacher. but me and lauren have fun.
chem- so i'm pretty much the biggest loner in this class. all of the juniors (the very few thats in the class) are lame. the ima chemist thing was kinda weird. and im the only junior in my group. fabulous.
apush- im kinda excited for this class... but scared too. idk i think ill do okay and i love schusterbauer!
world religions- shoot me now. dumbest class ever. larkin is a nut.
alg 2- k so dambrun cant teach. she literally looked at someones homework because she couldnt do the problem. she bugs the crap out of me. i would switch out if i didnt have friends in that class.. hopefully ill survive. :)
mercy dance was reeeeally fun. tons of ppl were there so i was very happy. i had to sell waters towards the end but we ended up running out so we just closed the stand thing so i got to leave early :) im really tired now though and i have to work from 1-6 tomorrow and then im going over to my cousins with my brothe for game night! and we always have fun so im excited. |
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| hi. |
[Aug. 29th, 2006|01:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Q&A - cartel | ] |
yesss liam's finally asleep.
saturday was my cousin morgan's bday so we went to their house for cake and ice cream. it was fun, my cousin tiffany was being a huge annoyance but when she left it was better. me jenna and andy played a bunch of games. i love my family so much, after some of the things theyve been through we all still get together for bdays and everything, theyre amazing.
on sunday i had to work from 10-3. it was really busy but it was better than just standing there. ANOTHER customer crapped his pants. seriously some old people are disgusting. then later that night jenna came over and had a cheetah partay hahaha and watched the cheetah girls 2. then we watched bring it on 3 which was actually really funny... KRUMPING. haha
monday i drove up to kmart with jenna to get my paycheck. we got a couple pretzels and i talked to shanyn for a while. my paycheck made me a very happy camper ($312). then i drove jenna home, went to kroger to deposit and cash part of my check then i bought catie a balloon and drove over to her house since it was her bdaaaayyy. then she drove us up to target... her driving skills are just... amazing hahaha i enjoy parking in noman's land. then we went back to her house and waited for stephani and we went to chili's and colored peppers and hung out w/ peppercorn haha i love those girls. then we went to borders, i got the cartel cd, its pretty good. stephani then had to save someone by running out in the rain like an idiot and moved the cart in the middle of the road and almost getting hit by a car in the process lol. then we went back to her house and left later on.
and now im babysitting liam and bored out of my mind... ive been on myspace pretty much the entire day which is pretty sad.
tomorrow im going up to mercy to see if i can get my schedule changed.. not expecting anything though. then going to laurens house for lunch and then 12 oaks. and school starts in a week. fabulous. |
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[Aug. 21st, 2006|10:28 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
please buy my christian traditions book! im willing to sell it cheap.
oh and its for mr wrights class.
that is all. |
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| sigh |
[Aug. 19th, 2006|04:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | thank goodness- wicked | ] |
work today was crazy. im so tired. we had the fashion show thing today and so many effing people were there. we had 4 cashiers (it's usually 1 or 2) and it still took us forever to get rid of everyone.
last couple of days i hung out with devan. it was fun hanging out with her again :) we went to see the broadway camp showcase last night. i don't even wanna talk how bad it was. a couple people were good... but it was just very very sad. and just being at that theatre makes me feel weird. i probably wont be going back there in a while.
i hung out with joe too, for the last time in a while. we just walked around fountain walk and talked about life, haha. im gonna miss him tons.
so now i have to babysit in 15 minutes. the kids are fun but im soo tired. blleh. |
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